games TheChemist • 1d ago • 100%

Today is 14 years since Fallout: New Vegas was released.

I have almost 3,400 hours on the game, and I have heavily modded it, and yet I have only completed the game once. Never once, have I thought of supporting The Legion at all, and it was the game that helped me realize I am Asexual, since I never felt the need to pick any of the perks that add attraction to the opposite or same sex (I wish there was an Asexual equivalent where instead of 10% Damage against all humans, you take 10% less damage from those same people). My most recent memory is one time, I was fighting a Radscorpion, when a Mole Rat appeared and helped me against it, due to me having the Animal Friend perk. The Mole Rat thankfully lived, and I wish the Animal Friend Perk gave me dialogue options to pet animals. Overall, given the game has themes of Anti Capitalism, the benefits of Mutual Aid and Positives of Anarchism, as well as being anti Slavery and the game encouraging you to dislike The Legion, as well as having well written LGBTQIA+ Characters, I would highly recommend the game.

askchapo TheChemist • 2d ago • 100%

If all my friends frequently are unable to message me, because they are busy, does that mean exactly what it says, or could they secretly hate me?

So, I have friends that, in this capitalist world, they are forced to often be very busy and have little time to socialize with me. Although sometimes, I wonder if it's because they secretly hate me. But yet, at the same time, when they do message back, they always apologize to me for not messaging back, and they never have anything bad to say about me. Often, I fear that, every time someone says they don't hate me, they are actually lying. I for one, can't see why they are so fond of me, and I can't think of any positive things to say about myself. I am boring. I am going into accounting, and I have Autism. My special interest is in Fairy Tale Retellings and making them better than that of Disney. My friends never seem to have a bad thing to say about me, and yet, they are so busy that, if they do have a lover, or other friends, I am often seeming to be on the backburner, or at least that's what it feels like. So thus, I am forced to go often weeks without talking to another human being, where I am too shy to make any kind of conversation with anyone. I often spend my days talking to myself, having theoretical conversations with myself and my several imaginary friends. To pretend that someone would be fond of me, unless my online friends actually are fond of myself. Either way, the gist of is... is that I seem to be suffering from the void of capitalism, it's uncaring, heartless nature, and that it seems to be consuming the free time of my online friends. So what do you think? Could they secretly hate me, or is my mind starting to finally crack from being lonely, friendless and loveless my entire life (I am 24 and had no friends until last year)?

askchapo TheChemist • 2w ago • 100%

Why are most of the communities so... Empty?

For most communities, especially some of the smaller ones, have posts that are only as recent as 2 months ago at best. I noticed that there is frequent activity on The big communities such as "chapotraphouse", "chat" and "news"... but that same frequency of activity isn't replicated on most of the other communities. For communities like "movies and tv shows", it feels like visiting a ghost town. Is activity for people here mostly off this site and elsewhere? Did I not get an invitation or something? It feels like, with regards to activities such as playing games or watching a movie, I see no signs of people on this site doing anything. So why are most communities lacking in activity?

chat TheChemist • 2w ago • 100%

What is there even to do here? I feel lost, and I am unwilling to try guesswork and try to go blindly into any new communities.

I am an Asexual, Heteroromantic Cisgender Man, I am 24, and I am studying to be an accountant. My interests consist of Fairytale retellings, talking about the negative effects of Toxic Positivity, having imaginary conversations with myself and talking to imaginary people that care about me, playing Fallout and Minecraft and 7 Days To Die. I am also a fan of Star Wars. And Tomboys. Today, I got a 3 day temporary ban on Reddit, on a bullcrap "Glorifying Violence" Charge, when all I did was point out how beneficial it was for the people of The Soviet Union when the Capitalists were killed off in Russia. (There goes my 153 day streak for Reddit) Now, I realize, without my Reddit account, I have nothing to myself. No friends, at least none that I am able to regularly talk to due to them being busy, but does that count as friends? And yeah, I just realized just how lonely and miserable I truly am. I have been at university for about 3 years now, and I have not made a single friend, because all the people there are too-optimistic-for-their-own-good capitalists, who think that they can make their own small business within 2 years of graduation. And they are Liberals or Republicans. So, given my narrow set of interests, partially due to having Aspergers, where would be a good place for me. Again, I am not a fan of doing anything unplanned, or something without even a second of thought before acting. I am a pretty boring person otherwise.

askchapo TheChemist • 3w ago • 100%

What does "Subscribe Pending" mean?

Because I subscribed to the Asexual Community on this site, and it said "Subscribe Pending" after I clicked the subscribe button.

askchapo TheChemist • 4w ago • 95%

Is there an Asexual friendly space in this site?

Because well, I am Asexual, and well.... it is incredibly rare to find another Asexual person anywhere. Not to shame people for their interests, but I am not comfortable with a lot of posts, even if they are meant to be for a joke, implying that everyone gets horny, and/or that apparent "Peak Hedonism" or whatever it's called, is about having lots of sex. Again, something I am not interested in. I have seen no signs of any Asexual friendly spaces on this site, not even in the LGBTQIA+ Subcommunity for this site. Although I have been socially isolated by otherwise queer friendly spaces before, for "only" being Asexual.

askchapo TheChemist • 1mo ago • 100%

Is there a community here for recommending textbooks to rent for class?

Because currently, I am forced to learn the subject Business Finance 381... from a Professor that seems to be an absolute idiot. For one thing, he demonstrated the flaws of democracy... by listening to the majority of his students, who said they aren't helped by a textbook, and not having a textbook assigned to his class, nor even having a designated textbook for his class, or having such a textbook available for helping to help people learn. So thus, as you can imagine, I am in the minority of students that is hurt by him listening to the majority, and I am without a viable textbook to find even at the college bookstore. Are there communities on this site for finding appropriate books/textbooks to use?

Mental Health TheChemist • 1mo ago • 100%

How can I tell if I have Clinical Depression? Rather than having the blues everyday even as a kid?

To start, I am not suicidal or having thoughts of suicide, more having constant thoughts of "I hate it here! What is there to be happy about?". I noticed, ever since I was around 8, I always had this sense of.. sadness within me. Despite what my parents thought, I always felt sad on the inside, and I can never remember a single time when I felt legitimately happy, rather than being forced by my parents and two brothers to act happy just to fit in with social cues. Again, ever since I was 8, up to today, at 24, I still don't know what it feels like to be happy. And any of the supposed positives in life are completely invisible to me, and any of the negatives are as visible as a bright light at night. I also often felt more "numb" on the inside than sad, although the former isn't a huge improvement. Most days, I struggle to get out of bed and wake up on time, and fall asleep on time. I could never relate to any of my peers, who seemed to be able to express happiness that I always felt incapable of feeling. I also always had a sense of "Why are they happy?". Thus, I grew up with no friends, and never had friends until last year. Even then, they are online friends, and are often too busy to talk. As a final clue, I have always had seasonal depression.... On all 4 seasons of the year. I told my mom about this last year, over the phone.... And she laughed in my face over the phone, saying that "It was funny I claimed something so ridiculous". Ever since, the main reason I take care of myself at all is out of spite for my mom always doubting the existence of depression.

chat TheChemist • 1mo ago • 96%

What do you do on a Friday, Saturday and Sunday night, when all of your online friends are too busy, your DnD Campaign was finished, and you have nobody to talk to?

I am in a situation where, all my friends are often too busy, so I often spend weeks, here in college, without talking to another soul. To make things worse, I am very shy, and I can stutter a lot in voice calls. And thus, I am often too scared to try and message my online friends (I have only about 5, and they are the first friends I ever made in life, and I only befriended them last year), to ask them if they can hang out. I did once, but I need time to work up the courage again to ask for a hang out. So anyways, what is it that you do, to occupy your time, when you spend most of your days with nobody to talk to? And you yourself are often busy with things in life?

Anime Piracy TheChemist • 1mo ago • 75%

Ever since the end of Aniwave, are there any other places I can find and watch this Anime?

As some of you might know, I had asked about this anime previously. However, the place where I had been able to watch it, Aniwave, was recently shut down, so thus I was left without a place to find this cult classic of an anime. This one is very obscure, and was released in 2005, without ever being officially released outside of Japan.

Anime Piracy TheChemist • 2mo ago • 100%

Should I or should I not risk attempting to access 9anime.org while on School Wifi/Wired Internet? And while living on Campus.

The site is ww4. 9animes.org. (No space in between) I have had no problem watching Animes for free on Firefox and having UBlock Origin (Which Google recently discontinued for Chrome) prevents any ads. That being said, that was when I was using my home internet. I had no notifications of accessing copyrighted material or the like. I had no problems. What is the likelihood that say, the school would get red flags from me using that site? Could it still work while I am here living on Campus? Should I try to find a VPN? (I am a bit of a rookie with this kind of thing).

music TheChemist • 4mo ago • 100%

Kenji Bunch: The Snow Queen

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Performed by Oregon's Orchestra Next, this musical movement was made to accompany and complement the show by Eugene Ballet Company. Kenji Bunch himself wrote; "Helping to tell this hauntingly beautiful but entirely wordless story for close to two hours was, simply put, the largest undertaking of my career to date, by a longshot." Unlike Disney's Frozen, this Ballet Performance and Orchestral accompanying piece follows closely the original fairy tale. More information here: [And also reviews](https://www.innova.mu/albums/kenji-bunch/snow-queen)

anime TheChemist • 5mo ago • 100%

During Spring Break this year, I was able to watch and complete this Anime. I was finally able to gather my thoughts about it. A Little Review and Recommendation.

To get it off my chest first... Holy Hell, was it beautiful, every single episode. And I almost never think that about much. This anime, it's an incredible shame that it is so obscure. From what I saw on Tumblr, this is indeed a Cult Classic. Having seen it in it's entirety, I can completely see why it is so beloved by the few that have been able to view it. It's a real shame that, unlike other works directed by the late Osamu Dezaki, such as Lupin III, The Rose of Versailles, even the CLANNAD movie.... this particular shoujo anime never got a release in the United States. Compared to other adaptations of "The Snow Queen" by Hans Christian Anderson, I would say this is the best adaptation I have seen. It doesn't minimize details like the original fairy tale, it actually expands what sounds like The Hero's Journey in the original fairy tale, into actually being a long journey. Expands the journey into 36, 22-minute episodes. And instead of trying to come up with too much original ideas, the anime makes almost each and every episode an adaptation of another Hans Christian Anderson story. Not just well known classics like 'The Little Mermaid' and 'The Little Match Girl', but also obscure ones like 'The Pea Blossoms' and 'Good For Nothing'. It can become almost a Scavenger hunt game; To try and find out what HCA Story each episode is based on, or inspired by. As someone who has been getting into HCA Stories not just as a Special Interest, but a full on permanent interest. Anyways, as for how the characters are written, I really loved that, the anime took advantage of it's extra time, and gave time to not only show more characters, but also to expand the characterization of Kai, Gerda and even The Snow Queen herself. Every other character, even the ones that appear for only a single episode, all felt, well, like real people. I also really loved that, the Anime doesn't jump into the main plot, it builds up for 3 episodes, giving time to show a rather heartwarming and healthy bond between Kai and Gerda, and showing a platonic love between a boy and a girl. This extra time made me feel more for Gerda when she decides on her own, to go through a perilous journey, with half of it on her own, to find and rescue Kai. Thus, just like the book, it does a rare Gender Reversal of the Damsel in Distress Scenario. Very forward for a fairy tale written in 1845. Gerda is determined, yet she isn't perfect. She needs help from people she meets, since while yes, she has the spirit, and energy, which is channeled into hard work, she isn't shown to be able to solve everything on her own, and she can be reckless a few times. She is only eleven years old. However, those flaws made her more appealing as a character, because I actually wanted to see how she could solve each dilemma Kai, by contrast, as shown before his personality gets corrupted, is more laid back, more devoted to solitary activities, such as mathematics or school studies or using a loupe to gaze more closely into snowflakes, compared to manual labor such as gleaning spare pieces of wheat. However, that didn't make him come off as lazy, it instead made him feel like he prefers to work smarter, but he isn't malicious about it either, as shown by how he is willing to correct his insufficient effort. Although, one of my few criticisms is that, we don't get to see much more of Kai's personality before he get's corrupted by a mirror shard. In other words, he feels like a twelve year old boy, with his shortcomings Overall, the main duo from the Fairy Tale, felt true to what few insights the fairy tale gave us of their personalities, while also feeling much more fleshed out as characters. From what I heard, these two wouldn't have been out of place in a Studio Ghibli work. And you can actually feel for Gerda as she goes on her journey, motivated by Platonic love. I also loved that they both loved roses, with Kai having White Roses, and Gerda having Red Roses. The pacing is amazing, as there are several moments where there is no dialogue, only the characters wordlessly performing an action, therefore giving the viewer a chance to take in what is happening, without it being spelled out for you. There were many moments where I felt an anticipatory impatience, where I wanted to know what would happen, but yet, I knew I would regret trying to skip anything. Even the extra episodes based on existing HCA stories, they don't feel like filler, but instead, opportunities to show Gerda interacting with other people (I.E. She isn't defined solely by her quest of finding her best friend), and the moments that demonstrates the theme of the kindness of strangers, and Gerda being there to occasionally redeem a person that say, wanted to steal from others, where she inspires him to change his ways, or even an opportunity to help someone in need. The Artwork is great too. What really stands out, is that the artwork was instead, inspired by European Animation from the 1990s and 1980s, rather than an Anime style artwork. The characters are realistically proportioned, and The artwork is always easy on the eyes. Not to mention it frequently uses still frames that were drawn by chalk, a signature "Creator's Thumbprint" of Osamu Dezaki. Having watched it, it made me wonder, why isn't this anime, which was released in 2005, more well known. I often wish that this was less obscure, and had gotten an official release in the United States. This Anime series also helped me rebuild my creative spark, so I highly recommend this.

Asklemmy TheChemist • 5mo ago • 73%

What is the nature of a "Trigger Warning" when discussing works by Disney?

If so, what trigger warnings should one warn against? Alternatively, I also saw on another post that said that, the trigger warning wasn't actually serious, but a satire Either way, should I place a trigger warning if making a post discussing Disney, or do I not actually have to?

So, I noticed a problem I have. I have ideas that always, in my head, appear as a vague shape or idea, but I can never get a concrete idea of how something would go. or look I can only detail pivotal moments, but I can never picture the hours in between each event. I have Autism. Over the past year, I had been trying to write, but I could never effectively translate my ideas. Every time I get to the keyboard, it seems my flowing mind grinds to a halt. I have been working alone, so that doesn't help much. I am good at designing character designs in Heroforge, but not so good at putting them to writing, because I will need a constant concrete foundation for how something would look. And I have trouble coming up with how something would be without any kind of foundation or starting point It was watching two episodes of The 2005 'The Snow Queen' anime today, that I realized that my creative forte was not in writing a book without a helping visual aid. However, I cannot make visual art either. I had the idea of somehow making a visual novel format, where there is an emphasis on character dialogue and interactions. Is there some program or software where I can show a story in a visual novel format? That is, showing lots of still backgrounds and characters with lots of text? Edit: External Aid! That's the concept I was looking for. I can't formulate something solely off the top of my head. Whether it's bouncing ideas by sharing with others, collaborating with others, or just having a picture of something, any kind of external stimuli or aid is something I always need to be able to have ideas at all.

askchapo TheChemist • 3y ago • 0%

Do any of you know of any good ASMR artists?

Because other than one, I can't really find any good ones that aren't overloaded with Lewd content. Women artists only please; they don't have to be pro leftist. Thank You.